" the light and the heat, I am complete."
Had the most idiotic, ludicris, obtuse, sensless, inane, unproductive, preprosperous, screwy weekend of my life.
Friday:
no school, so first thought would be, joy to world and life it's self. But no. On account of telling my mom to shut her face i was grounded during this free day. I still managed to escape and go to walmart and oddlots. Nice accomplishment.
Then when plans, and fun times knocked on my door. I had to slap up my "do not disturb" signs all around. Set up the jail walls. Get the quarentine under way. I got yelled at for even asking. lordy lordy lue. parents.
Saturday:
Plans. but ruined by....
EDIT LATER, PHONE CALL :)
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Dancing
More than anything on this entier planet and more. Even the amount of sand and stars and water and trees could not amount to the exact amount of how much :
I
Want
To
DANCE.
And the happy and liberating thing is that I can do exactly that, all day, for ever long I want. I just thought I'd share that with you all. Dance DAnce Dance.
it's what I crave.
Today:
-Doogie ate part of my 500$ + retainer.. (son of a b)
-wore red and green
-piano lessons, wierd student thats after me talks about my emproovement in my jazz peice.. You actually pay attention? I don't know about him.
-musical tymes, where I bought a Polar express song " beleive" ( for Xmas concert )
-also bought a cold play book!, witch is what brought on this whole concept of dancing.
coldplay is dancing.
-well i've caught up to the present.
-not a very interessting saturday morning.
Lets continue on the day freefully, dancyingfully, without doogie eating more of my things that cost 500 dollars-fully. and with no more lists. aight?
I
Want
To
DANCE.
And the happy and liberating thing is that I can do exactly that, all day, for ever long I want. I just thought I'd share that with you all. Dance DAnce Dance.
it's what I crave.
Today:
-Doogie ate part of my 500$ + retainer.. (son of a b)
-wore red and green
-piano lessons, wierd student thats after me talks about my emproovement in my jazz peice.. You actually pay attention? I don't know about him.
-musical tymes, where I bought a Polar express song " beleive" ( for Xmas concert )
-also bought a cold play book!, witch is what brought on this whole concept of dancing.
coldplay is dancing.
-well i've caught up to the present.
-not a very interessting saturday morning.
Lets continue on the day freefully, dancyingfully, without doogie eating more of my things that cost 500 dollars-fully. and with no more lists. aight?
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Thursdays
Never you mind my last post, yes that's basically how I talk, but computer formatted.
I seriously wish my dog would stop slurping up his chewy dog treat. He dropped it on my foot. No.
Anyways, theese are interessting post secrets that I have gathered through out various sundaysecrets. I can relate. I can relate to all. I love it:
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
lockdown days with ditchers and video games and librarie love
seal coughs are the kind that activate land minds. It is a incredible phnomenon that is ahappening all over the world, today, tommorow, in my basement, poop. It's a horrible kind of thing that makes me want to squel i tell you. I can't get it understand me?, understand my words?
I had to write this on account of a lady from afriqa witch is also
LOCKDOWN!
OMG, I almost crapped myself. everything went dark. every sound amplifyed, every moment. IM SO SCARRED. IM GOING TO DIE.
JESUS.
MOTHER.
PEARL.
CHRIST.
LANDMINE.
BELL.
FACE.
GOD.
im actually kidding about all of this. FOR: Zlata.
I had to write this on account of a lady from afriqa witch is also
LOCKDOWN!
OMG, I almost crapped myself. everything went dark. every sound amplifyed, every moment. IM SO SCARRED. IM GOING TO DIE.
JESUS.
MOTHER.
PEARL.
CHRIST.
LANDMINE.
BELL.
FACE.
GOD.
im actually kidding about all of this. FOR: Zlata.
Monday, October 19, 2009
Find
Scatterbrain: ME
I have no aparent point to what i'm saying anymore, deal with the numbers i present to you.
1Tommorow is going to be a changed day. A day that changes.
2I'm reading Fight Club at the moment, re-newed it today.
3My dog sometimes reminds me of a dinosaur, might have been part of the same species at one twisted point in evolution.
4never really liked the word"crazy", I'll avoid it's use from now on. so I won't be a hypocryte
5I want to travel, christmas will be fun
6I'm excited to expand my knowledge
7I'd like my wardrobe to expand lately. I like new styles.
8Love. it's a confusing thing that I know nothing about, it's fine with me too. I just hope I get to know, truly know it one day.
and the best part is.., I know it's going to happen. I know it, i feel it.
9Ocean and surfing swells. Beach and sandy nails. Sun and whisping sky. It's somethimes the only thing that ever makes sense to me.
10, soon Sam :), California will come soon enough. Focus at whats at hand now. Then think about tommorow when it gets here.
11It's time to re-read that book, that chapter. You know what I mean, the one with mental strength to give.
I'm gonna need all the help i'm going to get, and I've accepted that.
12Glass castle. something to create.
OVERWHELMED.
So much to do and there is so little time.
First off I'd like to tell math and all it's complicated creul digits and graphs to go fuck it's self.
I TRY. I give you my soul and then some. and what do you do? You spit it back at me like acid. you DISGUST ME. I don't want theese fiftys and thirty two god damn percents. i hate you.
Second, screw history. just no. Do you want to write another essay in french ? For two days from now? On a little bit of Natives and there beaver pelts? And there meti friends who sleep with english folk? hein?
NO. , I don't actually.
Then, thirdly. Im tired of theese kids with no personalities filling my day. Thank god for the friends I;ve got. If it wernt for them I would be stuck in a stuffy room listening to heart beats. No one would Talk except for Mr. Macwilliam.
And he will talk and talk until your dead. And even at that, he probally won't even notice. He just wants to hear himself talk, drone more or less. No, not drone. yell. ya, yelling is the better adjective here.
French?
STOPIT. no more dissertations. no more dissertations. no more dissertaions. I emplore of you all. alerutoaiebtLKHBJHBFDSFLjgahkah :( no no no.
All of my format went out the windo just then. Bare with me and my not so creative thinking and or typing at the moment. I'm pretty sure the goal of school nowadays is to suck every bit of happiness of your body so that you experience an constant all time low. I belive that it's a sick sick trick, a game that's played with kids like me. Telling them they can do it, telling them they just have to do thier best in school. But is it ever enough?
First off I'd like to tell math and all it's complicated creul digits and graphs to go fuck it's self.
I TRY. I give you my soul and then some. and what do you do? You spit it back at me like acid. you DISGUST ME. I don't want theese fiftys and thirty two god damn percents. i hate you.
Second, screw history. just no. Do you want to write another essay in french ? For two days from now? On a little bit of Natives and there beaver pelts? And there meti friends who sleep with english folk? hein?
NO. , I don't actually.
Then, thirdly. Im tired of theese kids with no personalities filling my day. Thank god for the friends I;ve got. If it wernt for them I would be stuck in a stuffy room listening to heart beats. No one would Talk except for Mr. Macwilliam.
And he will talk and talk until your dead. And even at that, he probally won't even notice. He just wants to hear himself talk, drone more or less. No, not drone. yell. ya, yelling is the better adjective here.
French?
STOPIT. no more dissertations. no more dissertations. no more dissertaions. I emplore of you all. alerutoaiebtLKHBJHBFDSFLjgahkah :( no no no.
All of my format went out the windo just then. Bare with me and my not so creative thinking and or typing at the moment. I'm pretty sure the goal of school nowadays is to suck every bit of happiness of your body so that you experience an constant all time low. I belive that it's a sick sick trick, a game that's played with kids like me. Telling them they can do it, telling them they just have to do thier best in school. But is it ever enough?
Friday, October 16, 2009
Piano
I'm happy. I just ate one of the worst pizza subs of my life. I have to return to subway in like 10 minutes for my very first driving class. I sound like a 80 yearold. Driving class?, In car more or less. Like I said i'm happy.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Today Feels Gray
Ever feel that you want to do something, but your not sure if you can go through with it, or if you want to even do it in the first place. Mabye I'm scared of what will become of this . I want change. But, honestly, I get scared of change. This has been looming in my head since day one. Sumer came and went. Halloween is coming. How can put this off. Do i want to put this off?
Monday, October 12, 2009
sosick
goddamn school tommorow. I'm so achy it actually hurts to be typing.
goddamn eniglish project
goddamn winter/fall/make up your mind
goddamn sucky hot choclat
goddamnit.
I feel horrible. Like my throught is protesting against my neck. trying to escape. Can barly talk. Don't want to talk. I feel usless and sick and tired.
today:
slept23476 hours.
Forrest Gump, the whole thing yes.
2 episodes of the hills.. I had to...
One episode of the City. The City is better cause they actually laugh, unlike drone on hills.
That's what happens when your sick, standards for TV go down and you start watching visual crap.
goddamn eniglish project
goddamn winter/fall/make up your mind
goddamn sucky hot choclat
goddamnit.
I feel horrible. Like my throught is protesting against my neck. trying to escape. Can barly talk. Don't want to talk. I feel usless and sick and tired.
today:
slept23476 hours.
Forrest Gump, the whole thing yes.
2 episodes of the hills.. I had to...
One episode of the City. The City is better cause they actually laugh, unlike drone on hills.
That's what happens when your sick, standards for TV go down and you start watching visual crap.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Nexopi-poo
Hey, theese are old blogs from nexopia. I had to do it some time...:
INEVER THOUGHT I WOULD HAVE IT THIS BAD I"M GROWING UP CAN"T YOU UNDERSTAND
loving my life, softball game tonight=beer and cake and magazines
wake up thunderbabe!, i love battle royale
what's there to do in Santa maria at night?, nothing at all
shopping at SLO soon?
excited and nervous to what i'll come back to after six weeks.
my wetsuit has been way to dry lately..
8765
in Inglewood,LA... ya crips
glowing beachballs can entertain
hot tubeee
i llove Jalama beach!, transformation
Malibu tommorow? Hollywood aswell?, why not.
all is well (L)
S
1) going to minniapolis in a few days!
2) i love skylar, julie and talula
3) im done my eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesay !
4) my page has been refreshed, new plain picture of me hah
5) nobody in this entier universe ever even thinks about going on nex. i have no clue why i have been going on it so much the past few days, watch somone will go on and there will be 900 new blog post all me starting from like last week...(;
4) vhat ?!
6) batteries, poltergiest, tissues, madness, tickle, lovebug
7) my dog turned on me the other day, his teeth ran into my leg !
8) i enjoy my late-night strawberries and cappuccino
9) goooogle search also works as my personal spell check
10) i know it's kinda sad, but i'm pretty excited for the buffalo bbq hah, i haven't been on a ride since.... !
11)dork
12) ing
13)out
14) i don't have the heart tp end this thing on the thirteenthchickathing
BABYSITTINGBORDOM
1) there are so many movies that need to be seen, yet i find myself being way to cheap to pay ten dollars entrance fee. screw it, i'll wait for blockbuster nights.
2) this house has prrroblums
3) my favorite color is a cross between light pink and yellow and blues varying dark to light and darkdark purple and white.
4) i want to find a really huge painting that can cover an entier wall in my room
5) i think i'll frame the paintiing.
6) i have an urge to play my ipod on shuffle and lie in my backyard for a good half hour..(;
7) sometimes things will never make sense to me. like the fact that i have been sitting in this position for a good twenty minutes.
8) i'm waiting for a ceiling to be finnished being painted
9) cosmic bliss, a good name to the change that is happening in my room.
10) change is always good
LOSTHAPPYKID
1)i don't know how to describe it. something feels different theese days. Like im never tired in the mornings any more. i can pick out what im wearing in about 5 seconds. it's like i don't even care anymore. im just content with everything. a pretty wierd feeling indeed when things are actually looking my way
2) You might think that i don't realize what your doing to me. i know you think all this is about the biggest thing in the world.
3) A few words, chill the hell out. a: nobody ever gives a flying fuck about theese things. b: your actually a really lame person, following and such
4) Why have you become so .. i think ill leave this to editt later
FANTASTICAL?
"your eyes the light the heat, I am complete."
ohh Ben harper, you
Theres so much more, but i'm boring myself to death copying and pasting all this gyberishtype talk. till later.
INEVER THOUGHT I WOULD HAVE IT THIS BAD I"M GROWING UP CAN"T YOU UNDERSTAND
loving my life, softball game tonight=beer and cake and magazines
wake up thunderbabe!, i love battle royale
what's there to do in Santa maria at night?, nothing at all
shopping at SLO soon?
excited and nervous to what i'll come back to after six weeks.
my wetsuit has been way to dry lately..
8765
in Inglewood,LA... ya crips
glowing beachballs can entertain
hot tubeee
i llove Jalama beach!, transformation
Malibu tommorow? Hollywood aswell?, why not.
all is well (L)
S
1) going to minniapolis in a few days!
2) i love skylar, julie and talula
3) im done my eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesay !
4) my page has been refreshed, new plain picture of me hah
5) nobody in this entier universe ever even thinks about going on nex. i have no clue why i have been going on it so much the past few days, watch somone will go on and there will be 900 new blog post all me starting from like last week...(;
4) vhat ?!
6) batteries, poltergiest, tissues, madness, tickle, lovebug
7) my dog turned on me the other day, his teeth ran into my leg !
8) i enjoy my late-night strawberries and cappuccino
9) goooogle search also works as my personal spell check
10) i know it's kinda sad, but i'm pretty excited for the buffalo bbq hah, i haven't been on a ride since.... !
11)dork
12) ing
13)out
14) i don't have the heart tp end this thing on the thirteenthchickathing
BABYSITTINGBORDOM
1) there are so many movies that need to be seen, yet i find myself being way to cheap to pay ten dollars entrance fee. screw it, i'll wait for blockbuster nights.
2) this house has prrroblums
3) my favorite color is a cross between light pink and yellow and blues varying dark to light and darkdark purple and white.
4) i want to find a really huge painting that can cover an entier wall in my room
5) i think i'll frame the paintiing.
6) i have an urge to play my ipod on shuffle and lie in my backyard for a good half hour..(;
7) sometimes things will never make sense to me. like the fact that i have been sitting in this position for a good twenty minutes.
8) i'm waiting for a ceiling to be finnished being painted
9) cosmic bliss, a good name to the change that is happening in my room.
10) change is always good
LOSTHAPPYKID
1)i don't know how to describe it. something feels different theese days. Like im never tired in the mornings any more. i can pick out what im wearing in about 5 seconds. it's like i don't even care anymore. im just content with everything. a pretty wierd feeling indeed when things are actually looking my way
2) You might think that i don't realize what your doing to me. i know you think all this is about the biggest thing in the world.
3) A few words, chill the hell out. a: nobody ever gives a flying fuck about theese things. b: your actually a really lame person, following and such
4) Why have you become so .. i think ill leave this to editt later
FANTASTICAL?
"your eyes the light the heat, I am complete."
ohh Ben harper, you
Theres so much more, but i'm boring myself to death copying and pasting all this gyberishtype talk. till later.
Thanksgiving: Day 2
@ 4:oo precisely i get to indulge in a thanksgiving dinner. Again.
This is my expression when it comes to eating turkey two days in a row. Mind blowing.
(i'm also pretty sure that this is an artists interpretation of the JFK assaination.., i don't really know why i'm using it to protray my love for turkey. Sorry JFK, I bet you liked turkey too:(.....)
Every Morning I Sing
Last night was filled with turkey. And the turkey was filled with stuffing. A delicious combo. Jones soda, beets, pataoes, asparagus, coslaw, pickles, shirmp, vodka, bathingsuits, tears and pool water. I hated last night. I loved last night.
Things just had so much emotional tax on them.. cried,cry,crying
So much fear, then so much love.
we can get through this, I believe it, and I know it
I really do sing every morning. Sometimes I wake up from my acid-trip like dreams, and already have a song stuck in my head. it's pretty cheerful.
example of a acidtrip dream:
One night I dreamt this huge fiasco dream about robots and stuart little and a straberrie in the antlantic and a whale rock.
on the phone atm,
one minute,..
Walmart? for socks?, kay sweet.
Definatly never doing that again.: writing strange snippets of phone conversaions in a blog. I feel really creepy. akshd. Another "snippet" that has to be recorded?, one for my english project that's due wednesday..
Fuck.
The song stuck in my head this morning:: Photosynses- Hot Toddies.
Things just had so much emotional tax on them.. cried,cry,crying
So much fear, then so much love.
we can get through this, I believe it, and I know it
I really do sing every morning. Sometimes I wake up from my acid-trip like dreams, and already have a song stuck in my head. it's pretty cheerful.
example of a acidtrip dream:
One night I dreamt this huge fiasco dream about robots and stuart little and a straberrie in the antlantic and a whale rock.
on the phone atm,
one minute,..
Walmart? for socks?, kay sweet.
Definatly never doing that again.: writing strange snippets of phone conversaions in a blog. I feel really creepy. akshd. Another "snippet" that has to be recorded?, one for my english project that's due wednesday..
Fuck.
The song stuck in my head this morning:: Photosynses- Hot Toddies.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
october snowfall
I still haven't decided if i want to tell my whole life story on this thing. It is not much of a story, hence i'm fifteen years old. Probally not all that interesting to read all about either. I honest-to-god-lord-above have no ideas on how to write a blog. Do people even spend time reading other peoples blogs even?, or do we all simply spend our time creating them. I have so many questions. So many nooby questions about that thing we call, interweb.
Now don't expect this blog to be all profound. I'm probally going to type what comes to mind during the exact moment im typing physically.., i'm not going to stay up late, losing sleep over what i'm going to write on a B-log that i know will get no veiws, well no serious veiws. By serious veiws, i mean somone that will really read my gibberish type talk.
One things for certain, I want to try and make a serious effort on my grammar and sentance contruction skills. I was hoping this would help me with my creative thinking allaround. Now don't get me wrong, creative thinking is what I do best. I just can't protray it in writing very well. A weakness. I'm more likly to put it into song, or photos, or talking. Not writing. Not typing.
This will hopfully slove that problem,
for good
Cause we all know that IB kids need there amazing writing skilss to get anything close to a ninty in english. And we know that we all need nintys to get even close to that ideal university just within our grasps. And of course we all know that we (I) am considered a failure, via parents, if i don't get nintys.
My spelling is attrosious. Thought I'd let you know.
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeell, anyways. anyhow. anyhoo, anywhere. any-dida-dole-day. I wanted to make a blog. a stupid pointless blog entree to warm up my stupid pointless blog.
well mabye it won't be all that pointless in the end
Mabye I'll get something out of it. like that perez hilton guy, or what not.
Another thing, I don't really pay attention to the ever so famous peoples lives. I don't freakishly type and retype Edward cullens name into google image search. I have never bought a people magazine. Ever. I don't stay up late to watch reruns of gossipgirl and the hills. I mean it must be great and all to have money and nothing to spend it on, but i have better things to do than to obsess. My mom deffinatly reads people though. Then she talks about theese famous people as if they are our neighbors, or best friends that come over every saturday night for a BBQ. It's a disgrace. I don't really know about fame. It's a confusing thing that I never really saw myself being a part of.
That was my rant?
I deffinatly snowed yesterday. It's October 10th.
Now don't expect this blog to be all profound. I'm probally going to type what comes to mind during the exact moment im typing physically.., i'm not going to stay up late, losing sleep over what i'm going to write on a B-log that i know will get no veiws, well no serious veiws. By serious veiws, i mean somone that will really read my gibberish type talk.
One things for certain, I want to try and make a serious effort on my grammar and sentance contruction skills. I was hoping this would help me with my creative thinking allaround. Now don't get me wrong, creative thinking is what I do best. I just can't protray it in writing very well. A weakness. I'm more likly to put it into song, or photos, or talking. Not writing. Not typing.
This will hopfully slove that problem,
for good
Cause we all know that IB kids need there amazing writing skilss to get anything close to a ninty in english. And we know that we all need nintys to get even close to that ideal university just within our grasps. And of course we all know that we (I) am considered a failure, via parents, if i don't get nintys.
My spelling is attrosious. Thought I'd let you know.
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeell, anyways. anyhow. anyhoo, anywhere. any-dida-dole-day. I wanted to make a blog. a stupid pointless blog entree to warm up my stupid pointless blog.
well mabye it won't be all that pointless in the end
Mabye I'll get something out of it. like that perez hilton guy, or what not.
Another thing, I don't really pay attention to the ever so famous peoples lives. I don't freakishly type and retype Edward cullens name into google image search. I have never bought a people magazine. Ever. I don't stay up late to watch reruns of gossipgirl and the hills. I mean it must be great and all to have money and nothing to spend it on, but i have better things to do than to obsess. My mom deffinatly reads people though. Then she talks about theese famous people as if they are our neighbors, or best friends that come over every saturday night for a BBQ. It's a disgrace. I don't really know about fame. It's a confusing thing that I never really saw myself being a part of.
That was my rant?
I deffinatly snowed yesterday. It's October 10th.
Friday, October 9, 2009
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